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The day immediately after I wrote the last report, I saw no more scab. And nice lovely skin. So much so that I had to try to take photo of Jackie's leg. But Nasty Nic had different ideas. He did not care 3rd day was over and 4th day gone. He decided I cheated in starting my fight when I was sick and semicomotose. That his 3rd day was on that day. With incredible desire to light up washing up me and through me and into my head.
I think if I was doing regular work I would have failed the kicking of old Nic.
Jackie was on my left arm and I on sofa watching TV as normal. Ivan was on sofa on my right and Sieben near the front door. I decided to fight by not fighting those surge of smoking desire. I felt to fight that, I only intensify the desire. If I was to smoke, I was not going to make the physical effort to get that ciggie, to put ciggie into mouth, and to light that ciggie, and inhale that ciggie. Nasty old Nic had to do that for me. I closed my eyes, decided on my passive resistance and told him to show me. In short time I fell into sleep. About 30 mins or so later, Ivan was kneading my thigh and meowing away. I woke up to see Sieben on the sofa. I threw Jackie back to his room and closed the sliding door. And went to bed. Deng Hsiao Peng, the Comrade who turned China around, said white car or black cat, if it catch mice, that will be a good cat. What ever it was, I got through.
So it was the next day I managed the photos of Jackie's leg. Scab gone and no trace of any scar at all. I doubt Jackie could have done better even with Yunnan Bai Yao and best of Sieben's sewing and sutures. (That other Sieben, the companion to Druss the Deathwalker )
With such beautiful recovery, I should have been very pleased. Instead I became even more paranoid. You read I checked all sharp edges and wires and removed them. Thin chicken wire mesh might be sharp, but even then, I felt they could not have the strength to cut deep and rip the skin. I looked for blood on floor to find the more likely source but could not find it then.
I went back into my mind as to how Jackie would fly about in his flight room when he saw me and wanted to interact with me. He would fly about the high level of the screen back and forth. He still flew the mid level of the screen back and forth and onto the armchair. But he seemed to stopped flying at high level.
I turned my gaze up, something I had not done as what was there to look at and put a creak in the neck. My eyes opened with shock to see the markings of blood at the high level of the glass sliding door.
I immediately went into his room to see from the angle inside.
Blood marks were splattered at high level on the glass.
I checked the screen. And what cut Jackie so cruelly screamed at me. That was a curtain hook that hold curtain to the runner behind. Which must have dropped, maybe 7 years ago from days of YS and go suspended on the mesh with the sharp point facing up. A landing beside that would have skewered the leg. That could have skewered the body and the heart.
I was so glad to have found the true cause of Jackie's injury, and never would that be repeated. A lot more satisfying that those earlier knee-jerks of mine in removing chicken wire mesh and thin wires.
Path of taking him outdoors
I hoped eventually to take Jackie outside with me.
His responses to my recalls had been within split second. I just cannot see how more recalls be better and be faster. To split split second? ha ha ha! too corny for words. I am laid back, very laid back. To force Jackie to do that more because he was ready to do that in first place and to do that well is rather mean too.
We still did recalls as I wanted to increase his flight distance and area.
But number of recalls done became less. But that might be short term consequence of fight with Nasty Nic.
I decided not to have perches in the apartment. I rather Jackie perched in his flight area and poop in his flight area in the pattern I was familiar with and with well placed newspapers to capture. So no named perches were created when I would get him to fly there when cued. Do remember gwaigwaishishi Sieben existence. I became paranoid enough to stop doing those hide and seek recalls as done earlier. Sieben impressed me too much in appearing where I thought he could not have appeared.
To take Jackie outdoors, he would have to be using Tinkerbell UltraLite harness.
Which meant he had to let me do back rubs/wing rubs/neck rubs on him.
So I thought I started on that. Over a week ago. I brought my hand slowly to his body. He hopped away refusing to let me touch him. I thought no problem, I could use the clicker to fix this issue. So as I slowly raised my hand close to him and before he moved, I clicked and treat. Repeated a few times with my hand closer each time. To the point he allowed the touch to be made for the click and treat.
It had to be more than a touch so I was going to use clicker to extend that. I moved my hand to touch with a slight pressure, and Jackie did a hop when I clicked. That happened again, and again, and again.
Jackie might thought he should hopped when I touched him. I suspected Jackie is doing a Jackie joke on me. Through no fault of Jackie, this exercise was not going right. I felt I could try a different way .
Jackie was also landing on on body. I thought back of the HIMB (Head in milli box) , where I used the milli box to offer to YS to eat and when he was so distracted had my ways with him.
Holding a few pieces of bread, I offered that to Jackie who had to peeled my fingers to get at them. I rubbed and rubbed his back, and his neck, and top of his head. That was done a few time to know I could back rub and neck rub Jackie. I thought sad that I only had 2 hands as a 3rd hand could then shoot the video. That was on friday. And in a couple of days, my wife could shot that video.
I then thought perhaps he would not need the bribes all the time in the same way I faded out the HIMB on YS. I offered a piece to Jackie to get started on the back rubs. Treat ran out and he allowed me to continued that back rubs and head rubs and neck rubs. And thus photos and the videos could be taken by me.
All the pre-requisites done for harnessing and to take Jackie out.
It would be a matter of minute or so for me to conjured up the harness as I had all the makings in a small box(shoelaces, Dyneema, swivel joints etc etc)
Just know I am a true procrastinator. With no idea how long I needed to procrastinate.
Nasty old Nic
MY FIGHT DEDICATED TO THOSE THINKING OF THIS FIGHT, AND THEIR SUPPORTING FRIENDS AND FAMILIES AND MAY THIS BE USEFUL TO THEM.
I must never think I have won. The moment I should do that, I would have lost.
This is a war where I had to win every battle and every skirmish. It mattered little to that Nasty old Nic , as all he needed to win, was that just once.
I gave up smoking many times. Once was in early 70s and at a camping/diving trip to deserted island Pulau Perhentian off Kelantan. You get to the island by getting a fishing boat to drop you there, and at agreed date of a week later, to bring you back. I decided to use that to kick the habit. Before I could change my mind, I threw my 2 cartons into the sea. And when we returned to mainland, I ran to the nearest shop to buy my ciggie to resume again.
Another long fight was in 96 when we were in Hongkong. Which started as a bout of flu that left me feeling close to death and in no state to have ciggie for a week. Which extended until the 3rd month. One lapse was all it required.
Sometimes the fight did not even last the night. I thought I could stand it enough to the next morning to buy that ciggie. I had to go off on bike to nearby 7-11 to pick up that pack instead of the next morning as intended. Old Nic played incredible mind games that those not smoking have no idea about. Not to give respect to Old Nic would lose the fight. As then you be less prepared for him.
Some school of thoughts felt you must not have tobacco nearby. That might be true. But focusing on this exclusion ignored yourself as the key player, that a ciggie would not pop into the mouth, that your willingness to place that ciggie there caused the ciggie to be there.
I stated, half packs of ciggies all over the house and on my sofa, and in my bathroom. With pouches of tobacco and rolling papers should I ran out of ciggies.
I do not think getting ciggies away from you would be useful. In time, I would get rid of all my full packs and half packs, but at a time I decide, not from fear that having that near me would meant I might smoke again.
On Thursday late afternoon, I was walking to the local bike shop. I ran through mentally the bouts I have had. It was not all fighting all the time either. And noticed my taste buds, my smell and all made it a new kind of world again. I thought while I would not removed all the half packs at home, I would not be carrying ciggies with me should I go out either as that would be tempting fate too much. I then froze, and remembered in the backpack I had were 5 packs of ciggies I just bought before I decided to kick the habit and forgotten about, and lighters taken for granted. I could not threw them away.
I had no intention whatsoever to buy a car here.
A tiny car will set you back 100 k USD. Cost of living in Singapore became very high. We were told we were lucky as they subsidised us or that would be higher. Halftruths and untruths fade into each other and truth no longer known and maybe irrelevant.
The more we were subsidised in Singapore, the more we have to pay and the greater that they seemed to pay themselves and how well Singapore is doing because of all of them. Nothing about us.
After all, how else will the salaries of the highest paid politicians in the world be paid for?(Ministers here get 3 to 4 times what Obama got)
The assistant to a junior Minister will probably get more than Obama
And should a call for me to go come, I would just up and go. And should that call not come, I would up and go and see how retirement could be like in different countries staying a while each area. By middle of this year or so.
Got to the bike shop. In this shop the most expensive of their mountain bike was 120 USD Cheapest was 50 USD. But then, nothing of the mountains and tracks of Taiwan here that required true mountain bikes.
Bought the most expensive MB together with 2 locks. The 2nd lock be used on the Giant Iguana should I find that. To hold that bike for the time for the police to come to decide together with that police report I made.
That shop put together what I ordered. While waiting for that, dear old Nic came along. That how about a pack of ciggie be opened! Old Nic was not asking me to smoke, just to open a pack of ciggie. How nice and thoughtful of him.
I decided not to assist nasty old Nic in anyway, including that just opening a pack of ciggie.
I was glad all had been done and I could ride away on that bike and left Nasty Nic in that shop to stew. I thought that looked about the same. Nowhere was it the same other than it had 2 wheels. The feel, the stability, everything, were so mediocre compared to that Giant Iguana.
But at least with the bike, I could look for my G I in more areas.
And with that Andes Spider, perhaps might help snare back that Giant Iguana.
We will find out later on the 3rd week and the 3rd month.
And whatever number or other numbers Nasty Old Nic decided on.
My Silkquit meter to date.
One week, 15 hours, 8 minutes and 32 seconds.
381 cigarettes not smoked,
Life saved: 1 day, 7 hours, 45 minutes.
LiBai mash making.
About 300 grams of beef mince, with 200 grams of chicken mince and 150 grams of dried anchovies(for the calcium). That was all done up to the kitty mash formula I wrote about in
Pakistan//Tinkerbell Kitty Mash//Dommie at the beach Ramadhan 2010 //Villa walkabout 2
Instead of the almond and brazil nuts, about 100 grams of human grade groundnuts(peanuts) were used.
Making of Tinkerbell Mash
Morning with Harry & the decision// Sultan of Oman Palace// Tinkerbell Mash Batch 7
suri - Read "Conditioning clicker day 3 - and some tips on suris"
milli - read "Found the perfect treat and Yingshiong first "step up""
if you forgotten about clicker training
Tinkerbell Legacy - VH parrot and Clicker Training Rant 06
Some thoughts on clicker - The initial experience with Tinkerbell
Clicker training and bonding with Tinkerbell
To Shanlung-Charlie and clicker training
Charlie and clicker training - beyond touch target //LiBai on finger and in slow motion videos —
FREE FLIGHT IS LIFE AND DEATH PLEASE DO NOT TRY THIS YOURSELF UNLESS YOU DO KNOW.
NEVER EVER FREE FLY WITHOUT THE KNOWLEDGE AS THIS CAN LEAD TO LOSS AND DEATH OF YOUR BIRD.
(edited on 4th November 2011 to include below)
To Shanlung - How to do Free Flight Outside
If what I wrote help you and you like to help, give a thought
for the wildlife sharing our planet.
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